stop trying.

p.s.

your hair was folded in waves, and colored brown

I went to sleep at 7 last night.
It was great. This morning I'm pretty zen. Don't have a lot to say.
Started writing a song about how you've got a friend in the moon. It's true. More on this later.

Until then:I miss this. Makes me excited for the summer, especially on dreary days like these.

one and one and one is three

This weekend was great, although I'm really really sad I couldn't go to the play. Everything conflicted.
Went to Kay's for her birthday, happy 16th, girlie. Ali and Kayla were there (Kayla was renamed Roo by Miles [Twitch] the next morning). He ripped me off, whatever. Preston and Taylor came by and we hung out till 11 or so with Jess and Syd. Taylor and I are best friends now; we recite The Producers and Rocky Horror and the Wizard of Oz and such musicals. Kayla came back in the morning rolling on a river while the rest of us chilled drinking water and taking much-needed ibuprofen in the cave that is Kay's living room. The whole thing was spectacular juju, I think. I needed it. My brother picked me up from Southcenter at about 4. I think he cut some of my hair off in my sleep for drug testing though. Too bad I wouldn't pass. JUST KIDDING.
Goodbye.

Love.

what the fuck

ENOUGH

el sol acarició mi faz

I don't have a lot to say today. My parents leave tomorrow. I need to shop tonight, I didn't get a chance to do so last night. I'll be riding with Alexa. She'll be driving. WHOA.
My madre took Tino to doggie camp today. He'll learn to be an Indian dog with my uncle Darren. Haha. Darren has two kitties; they're brothers, puffy black kitties...one is mean and one is a "pussy kitty", Darren calls him. The mean one will toughen Tino up. I hope.
I have some hella cramps.
Goodbye.

myspace me fer sure

I think I'm going to start a Walrus Picture of the Day. I say picture because I guarantee it will not always be a photo. :)
Search "walrus" on photobucket. You have no idea how many photos there are of people with chopsticks up their noses. I will find pictures elsewhere.

Parents leave day after tomorrow.
Kick ass. I'm sure I'll miss them when they're gone, but for now I'm excited.
Need to go shopping today to buy birthday presents for Saturday.

I wrote this post at 9 am which was like 12 hours ago. Oops.

angsty music helps me get through life
i don't care by apocalyptica at the moment hahah
i am getting a cold sore.

goodbye

trying, for a reason

I spent this morning kissing and cuddling with a baby. I'm not usually one for babies, I think they're allergic to me or sense fear or something. That's it. They can smell fear. But this baby's name is Jackson Jude and he's my pseudo-nephew and he laughs all the time. So I fell in love.
I also spent quite a bit of time at SPU tonight. South African Literature and Theatre.
โอลิเวีย
Just a heads up, I totally did picture dolphins and it totally made things better.
Taylor, I would like you to explain your bubble meditation to me.
I need to go shopping for birthday gifts. I have no money. Thanks Miles. I have to clean my room. I have to keep my grades where they are. I'M GETTING AN A IN CHEMISTRY AND A B+ IN ENGLISH. FUCK YEAH.
I hope to God I get an extension on this essay because I've written one and a half sentences, regardless of the help I recieved. Eff.
I am going to brush my teeth and try to sleep. If I can't sleep then I'll bubble meditate or picture dolphins or write letters or maybe try this essay again.
Ostrich:

Otter:

And with that. Buenas noches.
"I love you much....acho. Muchacha? Mucho."
"Muchacha (: I love you...beaucoup."
"je t'aime beaucoup (?)"
Hahahahaha fail. Okay.
Love.

not a lot, baby girl, just a lil bit.

Today was good. Went to Mariners' game with Reland and Gretchen and Greg. Saw Cody and Miles of all people. Searched for cars....went to the DMV. Got lots of pamphlets. I hate pamphlets.
I've been listening to Heartbreaker and Obsessed with you by The Orion Experience a lot lately. They're so catchy and it gives me a couple things to think about.
Last night, hung out with Camila T and we held hands and skipped down the street. Talked nonstop. I love times like those. And times where you don't have to say anything at all. And where you speak when you feel like it, but not nonstop.
Don't have a lot to say right now.

Love.

i've been dirtier than you want to know

SOPHOMORE YEAR IS ALMOST OVER.
WHEN DID THAT HAPPEN?
ALLISON B HAS THE PRETTIEST EYES EVER.
CAPS CAPS CAPS
WHY CAN'T I FORGET WHAT KATIE SAID
= SONG
BY THE MATCHES
THE MATCHES = <3
BRET MICHAELS IS A CREEEEEEEEP
so is michael phelps

PROTOTYPICAL NON CONFORMIST. YOU ARE A VACUOUS SOLDIER OF THE THRIFT-STORE GESTAPO.
Not gonna lie, I have a GIGANTIC crush on Max Bemis.

And Keira Knightley.

And Rachel Maddow.

Okay end fangirling.
EXCEPT ONE MORE THING
90s Tre Cool. (No that's not a Spanish-speaker's French error. It's actually spelled that way.)


okay.
i think it's time to go to intro to theatre soon.
+ daft punk
OH LAST NIGHT I discovered that I have a huge thing for people in masks. Like, my imaginary friend was Batman. And Spiderman. And I love whatsisface from the Watchmen, Rorschache(?)...psychokiller...(p.s. Allison helped me remember his name)
I think that's all I had to say...I had to document it...
ALSO


bai

do you want a song of glory?

Well I'll fucking scream at you.

Today's lunch was nice. The rest was kind of crappy. I gave Elly some pudding and sat on the ground in the sun with a few awesome people. I rolled down a hill and got grass down my sweater but it was worth it. I listened to NPR, the Beatles, and the Hush Sound on the way home. I fell asleep in Intro to Theatre, they talked about sucking on things and that's when I woke up. I got some lovely smelling stuff that is now infecting my room (in a good way). Got home and took a half hour long nap. Now listening to Motorhead, wish I was listening to old school Panic! at the Disco.
Need to study.
Need to sleep.
Why am I so tired?
I think I'm drugged. Except I should be sleeping better if I was on drugs. Some drugs. Some make you not tired. Some make you stay up and hallucinate. Some make you sleep like a baby and dream in cartoons. Maybe that's just me. This sounds terrible.
Fuck this, I have math homework.

tuesday, aka monday

I have a good feeling about this week. More like, the next 8 weeks. 8 more weeks until school's out. Crazy.
Today when I woke up I was upset so, kind of like a little kid, I smelled the mini bottle of Target perfume that used to be Kay's. When put in print, that sounds really creepy, but I totally don't mean it that way. It's kind of a comfort blanket. Funny, because I don't actually really like the way that it smells. It just kind of soothes me because it smells like Kay and she soothes me. So by association, I am soothed. Ha, geometry.
I got the best hug I've had in the past few days from McKenna when I saw her this morning.
I missed everyone.
Will write more later maybe. I'll probably just go home and watch Pineapple Express again.
My parents are leaving until May 13th starting the April 24th. April 24th is Kay's birthday. It's also my brother's birthday. I hope to God my brother, whom I'm staying with for those three weeks our parents are gone, will let me go to Enumclaw and see her that night.
Alright. Bai.

Love.

spring break in photos. sort of.

rockin your fuck me pumps

i love how everyone's saying just sayin now

i'm feeling like a magnificent bitch right now. because i don't understand chemistry and i don't want to wear out my welcome with hannah.
"you did too much e, met somebody, and spent the night getting caned." sounds like someone i know, this boy.
limewire is now officially not transferring songs into the newest itunes update majig. FUCK.
this morning my mother made an easter casserole and i got yelled at for taking photos. i'd be annoyed with me too, hah.
AHHHHHHH I'M GOING CRAZY. reland come over right now
okay goodbye

take my heart and please don't break it

This has been a good break. Even better, I've still got two and a half days left. Catholic school Easter Monday ftw!
Yesterday I dropped in on the last ten minutes of Kay's acting class, in which they are watching the movie Doubt with Philip Seymour Hoffman and Meryl Streep. Finally met this kid Andy whom I've been conversing with on and off for a while. Hung out with Nixon and Cass and Kay all afternoon until my mother got bored of being by herself. Stocked up on energy drinks and other artery-clogging goodness...I was awake until about 3 am. There was a lot of sleep talking both my and Kay's parts.
"Jesus gets half my pot!"
"I love you." "What?" I love you dude." "Oh, I love you too man." "Happy birthday."
"I have an acre on my foot."
"Pass me the lechuga." (lechuga = spanish for lettuce)

It was just...lovely. I missed Kay a lot.
I had the fortune of being sprayed with Cass's deodorant, so now I smell like man and it's great.
Getting better at writing my name in Thai. Gracias, Mykaila.
Kay helped me with chemistry in the wee hours of the morning. That was crazy and unexpected and awesome. Still need to finish it though.
I am hungry, though...I think it is time to find something to nom on.

Love.

reginold, release the hound!

It's almost 1 o'clock. I just woke up.
What the fuck?


Leaving for Greenwater at 2 ish...I'm going to go make a bagel and watch more trashy inappropriate movies. Is Pineapple Express Comcastable yet?

cause you all look the same, everyone knows your name...

Today was lovely. I went to see I Love You Man with my sister Maggi. Afterwards we got Red Mango frozen yogurt, which was delicious. We drove back to her warm lovely house with her hubby and dog and my cat, played Boom Blox (amazing Wii game...tests your patience, hah), had dinner, watched Family Guy.

HAHAHAHHAHA.
Anyway.
I love my sister. And her not husband. And my cat :D And their dog (but not as much as my cat). Holy cow, am I excited for college. I'mma have a cat, preferably Moo Cow (current kitty), I don't care what anyone says. Except Mookie might be dead by then which makes me sadder than pretty much anything. No matter. Cat will live.
This is a pointless post, methinks.
Tomorrow with Elly hopefully. :)
It is 10:18 right now. I think I should go to sleep.
Goodnight.

ps,

Started working on mural again. Elly, get yo butt over here!



A tree trunk. I'm working on widening the bodyish part now, and getting the Expo marker off my wall so I can draw over it,
End.

spring break pt 1

Spring break's been going pretty well so far. Have hung out with Landon, Ryan, Jessi, and Mykaila. I saw my cousin Chanin today; we drove down to U Village and had lunch at Specialty sandwiches. I had this Mediterranean one with olives, spinach, feta cheese, and pesto, and I think I had a sandwichgasm. Yum. I got started on the chemistry take-home test, sunbathed, got a little burninated.
Am listening to "Tatou" by Brand New. Their album Deja Entendu is amazing and raw and it brings out the most intense feelings in me ever, some I haven't felt in a long time.
Have been trying to get ahold of a mister Landon pero no puedo...

Okay. That's my update.
Good evening.

picture perfect

i like my body when it is with your
body. It is so quite new a thing.
Muscles better and nerves more.
i love your body. i like what it does,
i like its hows. i like to feel the spine
of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smooth ness and which i will
again and again and again
kiss, i like kissing this and that of you,
i like, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz
of your electric fur, and what-is-it comes
over parting flesh . . . . And eyes big love-crumbs,

and possibly i like the thrill

of under me you so quite new


-- e.e. cummings

and when i'm wrong i'm right, i beloooong

Good morning! No, really. Good morning to you. And this is a good morning.
I don't know what I'm saying, but I'm in a good mood.
I cleaned every inch of my room last night. I know, right? Alternate universe? I found lots of long-forgotten things, most of which I didn't know why I'd kept in the first place. I found a mini drawing Mykaila made me in September of freshman year. I remember it specifically because I got a huge whiff of her smell when she gave it to me and I died. In a good way. I had kept my backpacks from freshman year (wtf?) and eighth grade (wtf????), both of which were still chock-full of notes (not so much from 8th grade) and notebooks and drawings (which I've totally improved on since, wowzers) and whatnot. There were clothes from before 8th grade that I think I had convinced myself I'd wear, but totally never did because there were things like this baby blue tennis-looking skort which made me want to die.

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It's 8:44 pm right now. I spent the day with Landon and Ryan. It was great. My dress flew up, which wasn't so great. But we had bubble tea. We took the bus. We listened to shitty black metal. We played in the fountain. I fell asleep for a few minutes, and woke up happy. I sang "I Am The Walrus". We laughed a lot, a lot, a lot, a lot. I needed this.
I love those boys.
Okay. Bedtime. It's 9:22 and I'm exhausted. Haha lame.

Love.

it's a brand new day

Today is going to be a good day.
Started out badly, with a pounding head and a bad chemistry grade. But you know what? I'm wearing a tie-dye shirt and a teal hoodie today. I had cinnamon chip bread for breakfast and I have a bottle of cold water. I had a conversation with Margot about Wall E while we were skipping our zero period classes for webassigns. Morgan is back in school. Priyanka curled her hair today. Sophomore class is selling milkshakes today. I love E.E. Cummings. Last night I talked to Preston about lots of stuff. I'm going to hang out with Landon and Ryan tomorrow. Mykaila's name is written on me twice in Thai. I talked to Katie Bent this morning about how she tried to steal our Oreos. I love William Carlos Williams. I want to learn how to speak Arabic. It snowed again last night. Colleen brought to our attention a Corn-Bret Michaels face. (¬_¬) I wore my retainer last night so my teeth are nice and straight. My mother and I listened to Una Notte a Napoli in the car coming to school. I woke up at 6 and got to go to back to sleep for another 30 minutes. I smell like coconut-lime. I fell asleep looking up at my billboard with my favorite people. Amy Claire is wearing a tie-dye sarong (even more proof we're twins); her mother thinks I am her. I'm going to call Reland toinght; we are going to eat Milk Duds, I am determined. My butt feels fluffy today because I have new sweats on right now. I'm happy I can wear sweats to school every day...I don't care about how I look here. I'm going to seek a couple people out today and give them the best hugs ever. I think I owe people some awesome hugs.
I love you. I hope you're going to have a good day too.

what time is it?

happy april!

Last night was McKenna's surprise birthday party. :) It was great. Taylor De and I got to her house while she was at tutor and chilled and talked until she got home. Except, she came home a tad earlier than we'd expected, so when we saw the Pimpmobile pull up in the driveway, we had to drop our stuff and hide behind the fireplace. We heard her come through the door, bustle around a bit, whistling the entire time of course. The whistling slowly came to a halt as she spotted our stuff. "Mom, I think Taylor and Olivia are here!" "What? They are?" "Yeah! Or else someone stole their stuff and put it here." Taylor and I crept out from behind the fireplace. McKenna looked at us and went ":D WHAT'S GOING ON??" "Surprise!" Lisa goes, "You have birthday friends!"
I love that family so much.
Ileana, Taylor Du, Karyn, Lily, and the rest of the McNabbs came over for dinner and tie-dying and presents and ice cream cake. Taylor De and I slept over, went to choir this morning with McKenna, and then we all headed off to the retreat.
(Where we made the best bread EVER. I left Elly a message partly about it. Haha.)
I got home today and took an hour-long nap during Spongebob; that was nice.
Finished my English essay by the time my parents got home from their Native American thing.
Going to sleep at about 11 tonight I think.